Monday, December 27, 2010

i want to stop using my pants as pillows, and start using them as...pants.

I currently have 3 pairs of jeans at the head of my bed, being used as pillows because I have no other use for them. Like wearing them. Which I suppose is what you're supposed to do with jeans, I guess. Problem is, they're all too small. I keep them around just in case I become deathly ill and lose a lot of weight decide to get my act together and lose all this weight just hanging around. While they make good pillows, it's sad that I can't wear them. Because they're all really cute. I want to be one of those girls with a bajillion pairs of jeans, because that would be awesome. But I have like, 2. I keep talking myself out of buying new pairs because ya know, I'm losing weight and whatnot. But I'm still the same size. Here's what I'm thinking (and I'm going to use bullet points even though they may or may not be entirely appropriate. It's how this thought shows up in my mind):

  • My WI day has been Friday for as long as I can remember. I did it that way because I was out most weekends in London, with little (interest in the) control(ing) of my food choices. I would use most weeklies the first day of my week. Eventually, I started spreading them out over Friday and Saturday. but I never used all of them. Then I started using some of them on Sundays. Then I started using all of them. Then I stopped tracking, thinking I had a handle on how many points things were. Problem is, I stopped really paying attention, just telling myself I would start tracking the next day and exercise the next day. Tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow. If you look at my tracker for the last few months, you'll see sporadic meals and days tracked. Finding an entire week in there may take you back over a year. I thought the new PointsPlus plan would be the spark I needed, but that only lasted a few days.

  • My Proposal: I know some people change up their meals or exercise routine if they've been doing the same thing for a while, to get their system going again. I don't eat the same thing every day, and while the vast majority of my exercise is running, it's not consistent enough to be the issue. I mean, the inconsistency is the issue. But not the boringness (yes) of the repetition and redundancy. The only thing that has stayed the same (besides my weight, har har har) has been my WI day. SO I've decided I'm going to switch to Monday. I'm more likely to stick to my points the few days before my WI day, and maybe what I need is for those few days to fall on the weekend so I can get back into a good pattern. Maybe I'll feel less inclined to use so many weekly points at the beginning of my week when it's on a Monday. Maybe this is the jump start my body needs and I'll actually start losing weight again.
Just maybe.

1 comment:

  1. I love the idea of change! I hope it is just the spark you need!